Goodbye baby..

I imagine the joys, from seeing the positive test result, to hearing the first heartbeat, to feeling the first movement, to hearing her first cry, to seeing her for the first time, to the first cuddle in your own arms, to seeing her first smile...

Everything was perfect. Who would had imagined that all the mood elevations that she had brought you will come abruptly crashing down on the morning of full month celebration that could never happen. The panic, the anguish, the disbelief that you must had felt. What took more than 10months to build will suddenly disappear.

All that be felt right now is having your heart tightly squeezed by giant hands. Pain that you can never imagine. Time doesn't stop for you. Life has to move on especially for the sake of the elder girl.

Many months later, when all that's happened has been forgotten by others, you lie on bed wondering when your tears will ever dry up, whether the pain will ever go away..

Who am I? I'm just a stranger. You don't know me and you'll probably never read this. But I feel for you. Rest in peace baby. For the parents, be strong. May you find strength from your elder girl and your belief.